I lied to myself and then to all of you. I have never been so unhappy in my life. I am not loving my new job and not getting the support I need to really take advantage of this opportunity. I am made to feel guilty about not being with the girls while I work and mostly when I'm not working. Going to the gym is a constant battle, I can't go after work because Will wants to hang out and I can't go before because I'm abandoning him with the kids.
I want a partner, someone who will try to understand things from my side. Someone who won't expect me to do everything. If I walk in the door at midnight the last thing I want to see is the mess from dinner waiting for me or toys all over the living room. I know some days are hard but I never left my slack for him to pick up, if I left a mess I took care of it. I am just so tired - I could sleep for months.
I just want to be happy, I that so much to ask? Don't I get a chance to finally be happy? Ever?